A Total Destruction of the Heart
by Chelsie Barrientos
When your parents die, it feels like someone you loved
just decided to pick up and abandon you.
At first, I denied it. I put up walls, sealing myself from the outside world,
and soon, it became a distant memory.
Eventually, I found myself making “deadlines” to when I would feel better.
the time came around, I would pretend to feel better,
when inside, I knew otherwise.
Now, all I had left was my sister.
Together, we maintained the faintest trace
of hope that we would pull through.
I felt like I had to comfort all of my parent’s grieving friends,
and there was no time for me to grieve.
One month later, my sister passed away,
right when the feeling of loneliness in my stomach was fading away.
I was jealous that she could just drop off the map when times got tough,
and I was left to pick up the pieces.
I felt like my family was unraveling faster than a ball of yarn,
and everyone around me was dying.
As I walked home on that dreary, rainy day,
I decided that there must have been a greater reason why
I was the only one in my family left,
and I felt like I was on the verge of discovering it ...
Poem Copyright © 2011 by Chelsie Barrientos